La Voz de Galicia – March 29, 2026 →
It’s amazing how many things can go through one’s mind in just one minute. There are days when I am able to change my mind about a matter of vital importance in less than a second (or to hold two opposing opinions at the same time). For example, without really knowing why, I suddenly think “I don’t belong here,” and at the same time, “I am exactly where I want to be.” And I have a small dilemma that lasts as long as that thought does. But sometimes those thoughts last longer than one would like, and then I find myself inhabiting an existential ambiguity that is hard to explain, one that leads me to question everything I do and everything I don’t do.
Each person’s mind is a world of its own. And on those days when, for whatever reason, you start reflecting on the course of your life, on your future and that of those around you, on what is to come—on those days, that duality is more painful, because without meaning to I am capable of holding two conflicting decisions at once, and I go on carrying them without really knowing what to do. It’s difficult to think about the future when the path ahead isn’t very clear, but it’s even harder not to be carried away by the apathy of failing to listen to oneself in order to understand the reasons that lead us to hold contradictory opinions at the same moment—whether these are matters of life, work, or morality. As complex as it may be, sometimes I think that if there is ambiguity in my thinking, if I have doubts, it means I am on the right path, because it is important to be able to question everything in order to find an answer. But on existential matters, that answer doesn’t always come, and you end up in your own personal limbo, inhabiting that space between going and staying, leaving and remaining, speaking and staying silent, being and not being… And then what do you do? Keep walking… it’s spring.
